Something about cats.

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For context haven't been feeling gr8 recently but today's been pretty ??? eeh, for a variety of reasons. To both try and indulge some impulses in a healthy way and in general try and do myself some good, I went for a long walk! Some stuff happened, including a dog making my mouth bleed (rude), but we'll ignore most of that for the part with Cats. Specifically A Cat.

I was walking by a house with a car in the driveway, and spotted 3 cats under it. I approached calmly, though one immediately retreated through the kitty door to the garage. fair enough. enough was out of my reach and not moving so okay, and another was close and I tried to beckon it out. After giving up but reapproaching to try and take a cute snap chat at least, the cat allowed me to gently touch it's head, though once I sat fully in the stranger driveway instead of crouching - the cat was All For Petting.

And just?? There's something about cats. Don't get me wrong, I adore dogs, and rabbits, and animals in general, and it's very likely nostalgia at play - I've had at least one (or many) cats through most of my life, and NOT having one is actually quite odd and sometimes sad for me. So there was just. Something so nice, and frankly grounding since Dissociation is Awesome (sarcasm!!!), when this random cat climbed into my lap and allowed me to pet her. Sadly she had fleas and some flea related fur loss, but she was very sweet, played nicely with her claws, though her purr was quite- which is still nice, but damn do I love Big Rumble Purr Cats.

Eventually I had to get up, this was still early on in my walk. And I did walky things and ?? whatever. I decided to return via the same route and. Cat was still there. I sat in the grass this time and kitty came to me, and curled up in my lap again and I loved on her for awhile, before I started picking weeds to play with her like they were string or cat toys and she loved it and she made huffy little noises and she was So Cute. And just.

It was nice to know that even when I'm feeling really bad and negative about myself and situations, I can still make a cat purr, and to fee the familiar weight and warmth of a cat on me, how grounding and comforting it was.

Granted, it's also heart breaking that it's not my cat and I can't have her, but, can't win it all djkfhgg.